Feeling Good...? ...BOO YA.

Well well well...

Now for something completely out of the ordinary.

Or not!

I have this terrible habit of listening to depressing songs when I get depressed. Which then pushes me over the edge of a swirling tempest of bitterness, resentment, anger and unbelievable sadness.

I realized this a while back... When I was going through some trying friendship/relationship problems and having weird random breakdowns every two and a half days.

THUS! I have come to the conclusion that the only answer is to listen to HAPPY music. And to say "I. AM. FEELING. GOOD. AND I'M NOT LETTING ANYONE BRING ME DOWN." when you're angry.

SO. The other day I said some stupid, STUPID things to a friend of mine... which I think both hurt them and made them very angry at me.

I realized how stupid and mean these things were and apoligized as best as I could... but I'm pretty sure they're still mad at me.

Annnd... I realized that no matter what I said or did... they were just going to be mad for a while.

Therefore, I'm listening to happy music and putting it behind me. I can't change how they feel. I can only try to be a good friend when they need me to.

Life is good. That is what I have to keep telling myself. And if I will it to be good, it shall be good.

So here's some music for you to listen to and FEEL GOOD.

Live, love and laugh! It's what we all need to be happy, and it's always there for us to grab. :)

Mary J Blige - Just Fine



Nina Simone - Feeling Good.

Songs of Regret

Songs I listen to when I'm feeling particularly regretful and/or unhappy plus a poem I wrote about two years ago about eternity. Aren't you excited?

Ben Folds Five - Mess.



Matchbox 20 - Bed of Lies.

(I couldn't find a video for this one...)

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Eternity:

I have no words to speak,


I have nothing to say.

There are no thoughts left to think,

That are worth thinking, anyway.



There are only memories,

There is only music and poetic lines..

There is only the motion,

Of time slipping through my mind.



It was nothing to me,

Yet somehow I've lost something.



Time is turning eternally,

And sometimes it's the only thing I can feel.

Now I only wish I could go back,

Restart, and say what is real.



Because now I know,

Eternity began several years ago.



Music is flowing eternally,

And sometimes it's the only thing I want to hear.

Now I only wish I could change the track,

Turn the record over and remember the fear.



Because now I see,

I could have stopped all these things.



Memories are always around,

But sometimes I can't remember if they're real.

I only wish I could see them as they were,

And remember why I wanted my future to be clear.



Because now I know,

That it wasn't worth the show.



I have no words to speak,

I have nothing to say.

There are no thoughts left to think,

That are worth thinking, anyway...



There are only memories,

There is only music and poetic lines.

There is only the motion,

Of time slipping through my mind...



It was nothing to me,

Yet somehow I've lost something.



I'm missing something that I never had.

Why do things always seem so bad?

I'm missing something that I never had.

Maybe I can still go back... back.